Durante meu relacionamento com meu Pharaoh...logo no ínicio, eu tive alguns epsódios que me deixaram confusa e verdadeiramente segura de que ele mentia.
Ele atrás de mim, todo tempo; dizendo que me amava e, eu pisando nele; dizendo que ele mentia.
Ele tentava me fazer ver onde ele poderia ele estar mentindo, pois nós dois continuávamos juntos, não rolava mais nenhuma grana entre nós dois, não havia mais nada entre nós que pudesse eu dizer que havia interesse.
Ele estava distante de mim , como antes e, continuava a dizer as mesmas coisas, continuava a me querer ao lado dele e tentava me fazer enxergar que ele não mentia e que me amava.
Continuava a vir todos os dias na net para falar desse amor, como antes fazia.Ligava e ficava excitado de felicidade qdo ouvia eu dizer"alo"....cada vez que recebe meus cartoes vibra de alegria, corre a net para dizer que chegou e o qto ta feliz.
Posso ligar a qualquer hora do dia ou da noite, ou eu o pego em casa ou com amigos e ficamos conversando normalmente...isso j[a demostra que esta sem mulheres ao lado.Muitas vezes ligo de madrugada, e ele faz o mesmo...nos controlamos e nos cuidamos para ver se estamos sendo apenas de nos mesmos.
N'ao e falta de confianca e apenas ciumes provocado pela distancia e pelas boas lembrancas que tivemos enqto juntos no Egito.
Mas, antes qdo ele se dizia inocente,eu estava tão fechada.
Qdo ele conseguiu emprego, pelo menos a promessa de que ira a UEA, assim que o exercito o liberar, entao eu passei a crer que eu tinha sido vitima do meu proprio medo.
O medo de ta sendo enganada e sendo usada.
Afinal, eu mais velha 17 anos, como poderia acreditar que havia amor de verdade?
Ele nao e um homem sem qualidade, e um jovem lindo, corpo atletico, higienico, estudado, muito romantico e educado.Ent'ao, n'ao [e um homem que sem condicoes de arranjar boa e linda mulheres se apegou a mais velha, n'ao e um homem com problemas emocionais ou de relacionamento...e um jovem normal e muito atraente e excitante...ele cativa a gente facilmente com o charme dele.Enqto estava no Egito percebi como ele e amado pelos amigos e como as mulheres , mesmo aquelas santinhas com veu, como olham para ele.
Como fui estúpida, pois qdo eu estava com ele, sentia que havia amor, nenhum homem faria o que ele fazia, e nem me olharia como ele olhava, e não me tocaria e desejaria todo o tempo como ele fazia, sim...nao faria se nao fosse amor.
Eu sabia que era amor, mas estava cega e envolvida com os problemas que outras pessoas viveram.
Tava com medo de ser a próxima...de sofrer o que elas sofreram.... se outras pessoas mais jovens foram usadas, imagina se eu não seria, essa era a indagacao constante na minha cabeca...essa era a minha ideia de medo e, foi isso que me tirou a chance de ser mais feliz e faze-lo mais feliz.
Tivemos inúmeras brigas la mesmo, ainda no Egito, por causa dessas coisas....as vezes estavamos tudo bem, eu ia na net, lia algumas coisas e já tava enrolando tudo nesses sentimentos.
Qdo ia me buscar encontrava outra FRi, totalemente estranha...mesmo assim ele tentava me fazer feliz e me provar que me amava, ainda que do lado de fora estivesse meio frio comigo, n'ao me abracava e nem beijava.
Mas, agora sei que foi mesmo o que me contou...eu casada, eu estrangeira....sua cultura e seus medos diante de mim com uma cultura totalmente livre e diferente.
Aqui, hoje vou postar alguns emails de pessoas que entrei em contato, atraves de um site egípcio, eu disse que sou turista e pretendo ir a esse país.Ninguém sabe que já estive lá.
Veja o primeiro.( apaguei os nomes e emails das respectivas pessoas)
****atenção para a palavra "kitira" eu escrevi errado, o certo é fetera
>Hey Fridda:>
>Sorry it took me some time to get back to you, but I was a bit busy at work
>here....! Let's see, first I'm not originally from Alexandria - I'm from
>Cairo (the Capital). So unfortunately, will not be able to give you all the
>details that you want.
>In general Fridda; food in Egypt is not expensive as long as you don't go
>to have dinner in 5 Stars hotels for example:
>Fitira (it's like Sfiha..!) is probably 2 to 3 Egyptian Pounds (LE) = less
>than half a Dollar, $ 0.5
>pepsi, coca = $ 1.00 (Max.)
>1 kilo banana = $ 2.00 (Max.)
>1 kilo aple = $ 4.00 (Max.) - Expensive in Egypt
>1kilo orange = $ 2.00 (Max.)
>1 kilo kabab, 1 kilo kofta = Maybe $10 to $15 US Dollars more or less -
>Meat also is expensive in Egypt.
>My information Fridda maybe not updated - I'm sorry...!!! But, I have a
>friend who lives here in New York and he's from Alexandria - I will ask him
>about Hosni Restaurant and about the Militar Hotel, OK?>
>When are you planning to go? I migh have some friends there who can help you
>- Females tour guides....!!!
>You will probably need to rent a taxi with a driver who knows the roads -
>it's about 100LE per day = $20/day. Regarding the Pyramids' Tickets; I will
>have to check for you - I wish that I would be there to help you.....;)
>Regarding safety Fridda - people are very nice & friendly over there.
>Nobody will bother you. But please consider some "resonably" conservative clothing
>- even it's hot. Especially if you go to the beach. It's different than
>Brazil if you know what I mean. You asked me and I have to be honnest with you - sorry!>Regarding prejudice issue; I will be honnest with you: It's totatly up to
>you. If you don't want anybody to bother you, maybe it's better to mention
>that you are still married...!!!! because people usuallu respect that. But,
>if you want to meet some guys, you can say that you are divorced, nobody
>will check your paper anyway...!
>I hope this would be helpful to you; let me know if you need anything else.
>Do you use the Yahoo messanger? It may be easier to talk. Finally, Where in Brazil are you from????
>All the BEST....:)
>Yours,
>Sam
>Date: Tue, 15 Mar 2005 11:34:15 -0300 (ART)>
>WOW SAM
>You came from sky..you are just one I was waiting for helping me...God
>bless you because he sent me you in the right moment.
>So...you have brasilian friends...great!
>Sam...I´d like to know the price of Fetera( I´ve written it so wrong, I
>wrote kitira) isnt it , so sorry my mistake!
>Also I want to know price for lots others things
>EXemplo:> >> >pepsi, coca, 1 kilo banana, 1 kilo aple, 1kilo orange, and every others
>fruits we find in december.. mineral water, sakara beer ( I not drink ,
>inst for me ) , 1 kilo kabab, 1 kilo kofta, and I need to know the price of
>these foods in Hosni Restaurant in Alex.
>Also I want rent one apart front of beach in ASAFRA Beach, I want be in one
>place near one MILITAR HOTEL
> do you know where it ?
>One friend was there and liked it...but now when I decided to go there, I
>knew he is in Norway and his mother havent adress ...
>So, I decided to ask help in this site.
>I want an apart more or less with 100m2 , 2 bedrooms and one big living
>room, bath with hot water.I will be maybe with more one person.
>Also is important to me to know the prices of all visit ticket to go in Giza Pyramides...and price to take taxi in general how much cost, because I
>know we must talk with driver before we go on car right ?
>I want to know if has some problem to me walking alone on street and if has
>some prejudice against brasilian people, or marriage woman being there
>without husband...because I am separated but still no divorced, my papers
>are married.
>Sam I thanks you a lot
>Thanks for your helping
>Big Hug
>FRIDDA
wrote:
>Hi Fridda; Bom Dia Amiga:
>My name is Sam; I'm originally from Egypt but I live in New York now and I
>have a lot of Brazilians friends. I'm going to Egypt in May - Let me know if
>I can help you?
>Milhões de Beijos & Take care!
>Sam> >> >======================================>
* I trust more about what Sam told me because is more similar to what others ones told.
( this other man I got friendship and contact in another site from afrika*in this one we find all people form whole Afrika
Hi Fri,
Sorry I didn't answer you lately as I was really busy in my new job...
I m glade you are anxious to be here (:what do u mean by Kitira?)
Kofta is from 40 to 60 EGP
Bus Alex.-Cairo about 50 EGP
Train Alex-Luxour about 60$ first class 100 EGP 3rd class
Tickets is about 80 EGP for pyramids and 50 for each site in Luxour
It's peaceful to be here in Egypt, in Alex.
Asafra area is a crowded area but only during summer, but by December it won't by crowded cuz it will be so cold there in Alexandria and anyways just try not to wear hot Skirts except if u r going to a pubs or bars or parties, etc.
But by specific beaches not public, u can wear your hot Bikini (: If u are a real HOT GIRL, u will just hear some whispers and guys will flatter and give you arabic compliment that will make your day.
SO, don't worry to be alone, I will try to join you but december is the busiest month in the year for me as I work in Marketing and Advertising, we will be closing budgets and stuff.
An apartement with one or 2 bedroom will cost you about 600 Euro because 30 days is a short period for renting apartments and because it will be infront of the beach.
I don't think you will be able to swim or use the beach because of the cold there.
Do u plan to visit Sharm EL-Sheikh and Hurghada?
it's heaven there.
Please tell me more about you and reply my with any questions u have
Ar
From: fri fri
Subject: RE: apart
>Date: Sun, 13 Mar 2005 22:14:09 +0100 (CET)>
>Hi>
>Thank you for answering me.Great to know egyptian people loves us, we also
>love all egyptian and all arabic world, you know the brasilian people are very much warm and friendly people.
>We have here every religion and race living in peace , we really love to be together others.
>May you do a favor to me and say me how much cost one kilo KITIRA in Hosni Restaurant in Alex, and also one kilo Kofta.
>Also i need to know the price of bus, train, and tickets to go visiting Piramids and Luxor.>
>Look, I intend going to Egypt in December, but I must start to organize me or I ~´ll have problem if I am there and I see my money is not enough to me.
>I want be 30 days , the apartment must have 100 m2 , front of beach and having 2 bedroom one big living room.One friend said me was in Asafra Beach last vacation of him and he rent in this beach, so beautiful and also near
>this home was one militar hotel.
>I dont know name of it...he said that place was very good.
>Now he is in Norway and I lost contact with him.
>I want be with more one person in the apartment.
>Can I walk alone on street or I need some arabic person to be with me?
>I read Egypt is really a peace country and tourist are wellcome...
>Well I wrote too much.
>Thanks
>Fri
wrote:
>hi Fri,
>U don't know how happy I am that u r Brazilian, Egyptians reallllllllllllllllllllllly love you brazilian people (:
>Anyways, an apartment front of beach will cost u somehow a big money
>compared to any apartment, in Asafra specially will cost u about 10,000 EGP/month but i ll try to get u a better offer, how many bedrooms do u need by
>the way and for how many person.
>Prices:>pepsi, 2 LE
>mineral water, 2 LE
>kilo banana, kilo aple, about from 5 to 8 LE
>orange 4 LE
>and others fruits Max. 12 LE
>taxi, 3 pounds Max per Kilo
>internet cafe from 10 to 15 LE per hour
>It's better to use Euros instead of US dollars here
>1 Euro = 8 EGP>1 us $ = 5.5 EGP
Ar
>From: fri fri> >To: Subject: apart
>Date: Tue, 8 Mar 2005 03:37:33 +0100 (CET)
>Hello
>I am in Brazil and I´d like to know how much cost one apartment front of>
>beach,in Asafra Beach ( ALEX).
> I ´d like to be there one month in December, maybe i go before if i can
>get holllydays, but at moment is planed to end of year.
>Also I want to know if one kilo kitira cost 65 l.e...some people told me it
>and I must know right prices to prepper my money.
I thank very much all information that you can give me.If you can give me list of food prices,
>ex: pepsi, mineral water, kilo banana, kilo aple, orange and others
>fruits
>from december time, also how much cost taxi, internet cafe (one hour)...and others things necessary to me plan and organize me to going with
>enough money to be one mounth.
>I thank you !
>Fri
Acreditem no seu coracao...o meu todo tempo dızıa q eu estava sendo amada e sendo feliz e eu so penseı no q outros me contaram de suas historıas mal vıvıdas e tristes
